I am this close to giving up, I swear.

[agentak]

Went for a scope/stomach biopsy yesterday. I asked for total sedation and was assured I would get it, but I didn't. That's far from the first time that hospital has done this. I can't remember entirely what happened but something freaked me out while they were doing the scope and I got really violent, breaking some equipment and attacking the doctors and nurses. Next thing I know I'm in the aftercare and the nurse is telling me that they had to abort the procedure. I went through all that for nothing. If they'd given me the proper amount of anesthesia, I would have been totally asleep and they would have been able to get the results.
Oh, and apparently I was fighting back so hard I damaged some blood vessels in my face. One eye is filled with blood and there's flecks of blood all over my face, under the skin. It stings like all hell, I can't move that eye and it hurts to blink.

I am a level of miserable I didn't think I could attain.

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[outlineofwinter.livejournal.com]

Was just popping by to see how you were doing and saw this. :( I'm sorry that they didn't do it right the first time (and this is why I dislike hospitals/doctors/similar people immensely). I hope you feel better soon. Is there anything I can do to help/cheer you up?

[fierceawakening.livejournal.com]

Wow. I'm so sorry to hear this! DX