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I'm not really sure where to start this, so I'll just start at the beginning. This girl (let's call her Brit) had been ine of my best friends for years. She was like a sister to me. I can remember a time when Brit liked the taste of beer, but hated the idea of being totally wasted. That was about two years ago. I've wanted to be there for her, but I just can't anymore. She was always a flake, but she meant well. Now? Now I see her once a month. Maybe. It's not so much that she doesn't want to see me, it's that she wants to drink more. I don't drink at all. I don't like to be atound people who are drinking. I have no problem with my friends having alcohol, I just ask them not to drink too much around me. Once I asked her if she wanted to hang out and lied that I wanted to go drinking. She actually showed up that time. Brit calls her sober hours "a waste of time"; unless she's at work and earing money for her beer. She used to have high hopes for the future, Brit wanted to be an adventure tour guide (think: taking people on whitewater rafting trips), hotel owner or a travel agent. Now, after spending an insane amount of money on her degree in Hotel Management, she's a shift superviser. At Denny's. And she thinks that she's achieved the goal she had when she started college because "the Denny's is next to a hotel". She can't afford to even move out on what she's currently making. She can make enough for her car insurance, cell phone bill and alcohol. That's it.

This isn't about the play. I wrote, directed and co-starred in my own play. It was a huge hit. I sold out. She promised she wouls show up. She didn't. A WEEK LATER she finally returned my calls, completely shrugging off that she didn't go. Anytime over the next TWO MONTHS that she contacted me (about once every 1-2 weeks), if I was still mad she'd just ignore me. I finally got a reason she wasn't there. Actually, I got several. Just like when she missed my birthday and every other time it was important to me. She had to work. She was sick. She had errends to run. It was an anniversery with her boyfriend (she uses that one a lot. Guess what, Brit? YOUR ANNIVERSERY IS POSTED ON FACEBOOK. I know when it is. It was nowhere near my birthday OR the play). Anytime she gives more than one reason for missing something (which is often), it means she decided to go out drinking. All her other friends binge drink like she does, so she doesn't think anything is wrong. I've tried to talk to her about it many times and she just shrugs it off.

So I had it. I gave her two weeks. If she hadn't given me a proper answer, or talked to me at all really, I would delete her off my Facebook friends list and ask her not to contact me until she cleans up. I wanted to be here for her. I really did. I took this treatment for two years and I'm done. There's very little left of the friend I loved in there.


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November 2016

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